So The one i loved so much,respected so much came to tell me that "Strengths are those that has to be displayed and No point in hiding them and let the rest of the world think..who cares".As a man i was so much Affected by such a dialogue.It haunted me for Months and i was not able to find a Meaning to the "strength" that she described in her Words.What made her So courageous and confident enough to say such a remark about me?.On what notion did she measured me?
This thoughts get haunting in my head still now..
You know I am a not So Masculine Boy.Whatever others think.I had my own problems that happened in my life..Problems that are large enough to define who i am now.I understamd that i had gone through many hurtfull feelings in my past.its my story..But Society dont accept me.
So when a girl teases u about ur Manhood what should u do u should tease her about her Womenhood.does that makes sense?
There are no notions for a Perfect women or a Genereal women..Everyone says she needs to be smart and Intelligent.But noone really cares those things.
So All those Narcissist Womens out there who were Surrounded by Jerks were infact Confidemt because they are Beautyfull..!
Thats it! Nothing more powerfull in this world than a Beautyfull girl.
Whatever but i am fed up with believing the Beautygirl concept..Yes it is strong and rooted in my mind.Thats why i feel insecured about myself when i confront a beautyfull girl.See they are Perfect Ideals of Womenhood so We know the Reality that "They will get anyone they want..".Not only us they also know that..
So the first answer to my first question is this.What makes her so courageous pr Confident to arise such a remark?
Yes she made such a remark because she herself is superconfident about her Womenhood.
Now secondly the meaning of Strength..I think she really meant is that.even though she is a girl.she can mimic most of the Jobs that a man does with someehat nice accuracy.So she finds hereself a super ideal women model who is a ideal girl that fit the Beautygirl concept and the girl that fit the Masculine Boy concept.So what is she she was Both.!Yes this is Where Narcism lies their superconfidence lies there.They have rescue fantasies because they themselves consider as someone with superpowers..
So Basically I need to Say that all those Bad incidents,Bad verbal abuses that i get or a Bad Personality image that i formed from her remarks made me think of a Solution to my own problems.
I Learned something called Yin-Yang concept based on Taoism.That women have man essence in him and Man have women essence in him.
So those womens that cultivate this man essence and Man that cultivate their women essence that is what The Succes lies in..
My new Notion of Antifemnism consist of Cultivating my feminine part inside me.So i can Tease any girls if they make bad remarks on me in future.
I want to take activities that a Normal women does.From Wasing the Dish in house,washing my clothes,Cleaning and tiedying up rooms,cooking my own food and everything an ordinary women did in Past.Because when womens chanhe their ways,they find new things they became self capable of many things they dont longer need a man.
So what man wants to do.do the Same they want to change their ordinary Ebolutionary duties like striving for a Job.
And Making money for family.Looking after child.Protecting family..
Why...?
I need to be Self sufficient I need to sleep alone at night.No mother no support i needed from Others or Outerworld. I need to find wheather i can do it myself straight..
Things that i am going to do from now on to cultivate My feminine part(for Self dependency)
1.Sleep alone in a Room.
2.Wash my clothes.
3.Clean my plates that i eaten.
4.iron my shirts daily without anyones help.
Ok thats it extend it later...
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