Feminism inside bus

It was a common happening today also i experianced indifference while traveliing in bus, most of the men seats were taken out by women. Because i was a amle i got triggered as you know i dont get enough respect as man. I hate the women because they dont love or respect man and 80 percent of them are menhaters.
I saw women with great energy in them trying ro comquer man, they are using all their enegies to conquer man and his properties and power.
As a young man i feel so disgrace, because the demise of guys has led to such  a situation. Where i saw a large no of yoith unable to react to anything, not able to react evem tooladies that much fear is instilled in young guys. You know the emotional block and numbness the youth of Men experiancong in 2019 exceeds all.
By just making their bodies an instrument of pleasure men has just disgraced his natural Masculintty and growth and things that made him attractive and powerfull in society.
Most of youth including me are lethargic, exhausted, depressed and unguided as well as addicted and codependent with low self esteem.
What happened to the guys?
Personally i had gone to a level i had even died for a Girl who doesnt even love me. Who teased me during my worst time. While i was cryi g for love she just give me hope jsut to make me a clown infro t of life. Yeah i just want to die becayae i know even god doesnf want me to live such a worthless creature i am.
Have no use to anything. Have no life or anything. I became to that level so i decide to poison me with Some herbal supplementa like 5 htp and now i am experiancing Heavy withdrawal symptoms. Destroed my body, my Legs and my muscles. And bones strength. I just misused my body how can someonw who diagrace his body everyday with masturbation an dpornigeaphy doesnot come to a level that he medicates it with poison.
Also today i decided to just do serenity prayer to take my mind away from lust and sexual tension and amger towarda women.You see when they rebel i became angry and thats why i gointo obsessions and depression.If i pray and come to presence then i dont need to worrg abt them.i dont need anything from opposite sex,i dont objectify them or materialize them,also i keep this personality in outside as well as inside as i know i cant fake, i will try to control my sexual desire til my death..